Update: Russian Supermodel Internet Postings Reveal Unhappiness

June 30, 2008 9:16 p.m. EST

New York, NY (CNS) - Ruslana Korshunova, the Russian supermodel who jumped to her death from her ninth-story apartment on Saturday, was considered by some to be a happy person. As more of her Internet postings are being revealed, however, it appears as though she did face dark times.

In her Internet postings, the model's moods swung from happiness to sadness when it came to love. In one message three months ago she wrote: "I'm so lost. Will I ever find myself?"

The New York Daily News reported she wrote: "It hurts, as if someone took a part of me, tore it out, mercilessly stomped all over and threw it out."

One cryptic entry in March reads: "My dream is to fly. Oh, my rainbow it is too high." Other postings revealed anger.

In March she wrote: "I'm a bitch. I'm a witch. I don't care what you say ... I know why my other relationships didn't work out, 'cause I'm unpredictable. "